I can’t write anything at the moment, it seems, for reasons I am unsure of.
At least five of my friends have, or will be getting, married within the past year.  I used to compare myself with people like that, and ask myself why I wasn’t doing the same thing as them?  But I’ve realized I’m working towards something different than from what those people want.  For reasons such as love, those people married a significant other.  I say congratulations to them because they’ve done something in their life they wanted to.  I want to make movies, I want to create worlds on paper through writing and present them in a cinematic form.  So when I hear of another one of my friends getting married, it doesn’t bother me because I am worried whether or not I am doing the right thing in my life, I say, “great, now let me do what I do.”
And I’m too tired to say anything else, I’m dying at a faster rate than you.

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